I have a problem.
It's an indecision problem...and it's kinda a big deal. (at least in my life)
Since I can remember, I have been second guessing myself and spending hours in the grocery store contemplating what brand of cheese to buy. I just don't want to make the wrong decision, you know?
My problem exceeds the grocery store though, and appears numerous times daily if I'm not careful. What outfit to wear? Which shoes look best? Should I wear my hair up, down, curly? It really is quite exhausting.
It took me hours to decide what to even name this blog! And after naming off a million different ideas, I just had to settle for one because I was tired of trying to think of The.Perfect.One.
Speaking of perfect, I think this is were my problem really stems from. I am a people-pleaser by nature. I want people to like me. I like when people like me (vain, I know, but still true). Now don't get me wrong, I'm not a brown-noser, or suck up. I'm just the quiet girl who tries to please everyone and make the best decisions based on all those involved...All the time. Is that really such a crime?
Maybe not, but it is draining. As much as I'd like to be, I know I'm not perfect, but it doesn't keep me from trying to be the best ME possible. What I think I need to realize is that the best me and the perfect me, don't always equal each other.
I would like to think that my husband thinks I'm perfect (or at least did at one time), but the truth is, he loves me for my imperfections and flaws just as much as my perfection. It's time I start doing the same.
I am so afraid of disappointing myself or others that I let myself get hung up on the most insignificant things.
Life has enough tough decisions, why worry about the simple things?
One in a Million,
Jaimie
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